You might have noticed I’ve been a bit MIA…
It’s funny how when you set something down how it can be so so hard to pick it back up. After my husband graduated from his CRNA program I took the summer to just ENJOY time with my family. We traveled, we played, I worked my Maskcara biz a bit, but mostly I just wanted to soak in every minute I could before my husband started working full time and before I had 2 kids to homeschool. And then the school year started. And we got pregnant! Surprise! Just kidding we applied ourselves to that process if you get what I mean… Anywho! First trimester kicked my butt along with homeschooling my son who’s educational needs are far different that my oldest daughter’s.
Every week I was struggling with migraines and fatigue. I felt comfortable taking a step back from work. It was a huge relief that I had built my business (praise the Lord) to where I could cruise. And secretly it was a relief to have the excuse to lay down the blog part of my work. Here’s why: I was overthinking it.
I had an unattainable standard for my posts to be worthy of posting. I had drafted SO MANY posts that never got finished. I’m really good at starting projects hahaha, not so great at finishing. Can you relate?
I started feeling so much better and work picked up again in January. but blogging… it was this “project” in the back of my head that just seemed impossible to get to. My last interview was with Alisa Manajarrez, a Leadership and Executive Coach and she gently called me to the carpet. Through my chat with her I told on myself. She asked just the right questions for me to realize I just didn’t WANT to. A few month later I mulled that over and realized I didn’t want to do it the way I had been doing it. You can only take someone as far as they’re willing to go. So I didn’t go anywhere for a couple months.
In that time I came to the realization that I really do LOVE to write. I love to share inspiration. I’m a perfectionist. I worry about using the right words. I have too many ideas and have a hard time focusing on one thing at a time when my creative side starts spiraling – that’s a big problem! If you’re a creative with this issue PLEASE send me all your tips! Getting back to the point – I don’t want to be pigeon-holed. This is my business and since I’m in charge I decided that I can give myself more freedom to write about what I want to write about. So here I go!
I might not be everyone’s cup of tea, and that’s 100% okay. I like me. I think I’m pretty awesome in fact! And if what I write about doesn’t interest you that’s cool! Much love to you on your journey and I hope you find inspiration that resonates with you.